Why Am I A Reluctant Mom?

So here are few words that will give you many ideas about my #momlife. I was never too keen on having kids or at least biological kids. I got married to a very nice man and we decided to have kids after 2-3 years of marriage. But me being me, I simply was not ready to bring a life in this world and so 6 years went by.

My husband aka Mr. RTM18 was like- please, let’s have a baby so finally I decided to grant his wish. We got pregnant soon after and those 9 months were so difficult for me. Not just physically but also mentally as I was not really interested. I was working as a Social Media Manager and Content Writer then but took a break to focus on myself.

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Anyway, the baby arrived in March 2017 and as expected, I was not overwhelmed with joy and all those motherly feelings. My only solace was that it was a girl. I took the best care of her but still mostly because I had to. I loved her but didn’t feel much of a connection. There was the need to get my identity back so I joined my job back (work from home) by the time she turned 3 months old.

As Baby I started growing, it became increasingly difficult to manage things. It was also the time when I started bonding with her rather than thinking of her just as a responsibility. So, I finally quit in December 2017.

Now all my time is hers and I get a maximum of 2 hours to myself and that time comes with a long to-do list. Not giving much importance to the chores, I mostly focus on relaxing during this me-time. I read, watch movies and shows & browse the world wide web to unwind.

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At the same time, there are so many thoughts in my head and also lurking is the feeling that my life is drastically changed. I miss the pre-baby days. I have been through a lot of much stress post baby. There is so much more that I will keep sharing. The Reluctant Mom18 is my way of venting as I don’t like to write on paper anymore (perils of the previous job).

Watch out for a lot more which will be about my ideas of parenting, my weird thoughts, life of a regular Indian mom, baby stuff et al.


4 thoughts on “Why Am I A Reluctant Mom?

  1. Didn’t get the star wars robot reference though :-p
    I am really happy you back with something so awesome!
    Wish to meet baby I soon when she turns 1..


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